Interesting* random story from my life. I’m terrified of annoying people. I hate being seen as an annoying person (probably because I am quite annoying 🙂 ) and this influences my actions and behaviour in most situations.
I’m talking about friends here, not strangers. People in my life that I know, but am not in a comfortable rhythm with. There are some friends (this would include you, K) that I call repeatedly until they deign to answer my call. Gotta love that redial button. There are friends that I call whilst drunk at 2am to have a total whinge about an argument I just had at a party. And then I hang up on them mid conversation and go back to the party. (sorry K! lol)
But with friends I’m not 100% comfortable with yet? No way. I hate calling them because I hate to interrupt their day/life. I hate when they miss my calls cause it feels like it could be an irritation in their day. I hate messaging them first.** I hate doing anything that would be annoying or come off as needy.
I think I react like this because I AM a needy person. And that sucks. I don’t want to be needy, and I don’t want to be annoy someone to the point that they stop talking to me. Or wish that they could stop talking to me.
I kind of miss out on a lot of things this way, so possibly, now that I know how much I’m over reacting in most situations, I hope I can stop it in future.
You may have noticed, but there’s not much point to this post and it’s possibly not very interesting to people who don’t know me, but I was thinking about it and wanted to post it. So there it is 🙂
**I hate saying hi if I happen to run into them while we’re both on dates at the same place…